Insecure

In the past, i really didn't know where to go. I was thinking if i went one way, i would end up up on one side of the religious spectrum, if i went the other way, i would be saying good-bye to my happiness. I really didn't want to do that, 'cuz then i'd not be my normal self. If i took the other way, there might be an excessive amount of happiness. That could cause some problems, 'cuz i might be fighting with myself, n' that's never fun. I might take a vacation on a sunny beach. Then again, when i'm coming back, i might find a leach on my car seat. That might seem so revolting, you're about to throw up. When you get back, you'll need a sack to hold it all in. When you're through, you might think it's a sin, because you drunk too much. You might find yourself in a lot of trouble because you totally forgot about today's lunch. That might make the others so mad, that you've turned into the evil one of the bunch. You might be feeling some guilt from what you did earlier. An example of that might be seeing your flowers wilt because you didn't water them every day like you should. Seeing your flowers wilt might be a sign of insecurity because you didn't do it, so they're going to wilt. It's like my religious history. I was on the higher side earlier, now, i just don't know where to go.He hasn't given me any cues, so should i show him love or not? I didn't show him love earlier, 'cuz i didn't believe anything he said earlier. Now that i know he is the one, i feel like a changed man.
Copyright A Maynard, 7/15/07